::Doing that "I Can't Sleep to Save my Ass" Thing::
Yeah, what up? I should really be sleeping, but I can't seem to get there. Cool thing is I had fun after I got off work. I swung by the Brentoot's and picked her up. Then we chilled at my house, we watched Frida. Chopped it up...talked about all the badness and the goodness going on. Then I dropped her back off. I tried to go to sleep but I'm still bothered by all the crap going on. Crap, shit, then more crap. I hate how that happens. I know not everyone can get what I'm saying, but it's like all these little things happen at once then they manage to manifest themselves into one big rolling boulder of, "Oh fuck, here we go again". You know, like in that one Indiana Jones, the only difference is that I'm getting squashed like a fucking bug over here. I haven't been nice lately, I've pretty much been off like it ain't nobody's business. I hate being that way. I've been all negative, mean, and just plain pissy. I try hard to not be that way, well let me rephrase, I make a conscious effort to not be that way. Right now, I've up and left my happy place, and I did not post my Will be Back sign. Damn, I don't even know if I make sense anymore. I've been rambling and ranting my ass off these past few days. I mean all this stuff just had to go and happen like NOW. I would have been more than cool if it was like, "Hey go deal with this little piece of bullshit, then we'll throw another little piece. After you're done then you'll get the next little piece." With my luck, well lack thereof it turned out to be more like, "Hey we got all these little pieces of bullshit for you, but you have to try and digest them all at once, OK?" Then, right as I open my mouth to object, all the little pieces get SHOVED DOWN MY FUCKING THROAT!!! Yes, I'm in a bad place. I've been trying like a madman to get out of it. I mean I'll be cool for a while, but once I get some time to think about it all again then I go bananas. It's the kind of stuff that even if you did come up with a solution for it, you're not going to get anywhere because you can't be the only one trying to remedy the situation. It would take a collaborative effort. I just can't get that break. Grrr...now I know I'll be up for a while, even with this little vent. I'm like that. I hate being like that. It's like what Wanda Sykes said when I caught her on Comedy Central recently, "Women think so damn much that they can't get to sleep. They lay in bed and be like 'Damn, my ass can't shut up'." Yup, that's how I'm feeling right now. Ain't that about a bitch? All right I'm out. I'm gonna go try that sleep shit again.
Random Blurb: Fuck a monkey! (Josh seemed to like that a lot when I let that out at work.)
posted by Rochelle @ 3:30:00 AM
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