You are a selfish, immature, little man. I can't believe that you want to act upset now. You got away with so much shit in our relationship because I willingly forgave you. I stood by your fucking side through it all. Don't pull this on me now. I waited around for you to make up your mind for a year and a half. You stopped telling people that we were together after the first 2 years of this 5 year ordeal? How could you? Was I not important enough? Did you still want to fuck around on the side? How could you have denied there was an "us"? I can't believe that out of all those people we both know, that more than half would never have assumed we were together. What the hell? I don't understand why you're so upset that some people found out that we WERE together, they don't even know who you are. They just know that I WAS in a relationship, and NOW I'm not. Don't act surprised that people are saying that they want to hook me up with someone. You wanted to be friends and you got what you wanted. You made this decision. Now I find out that for almost 3 years I wasn't even mentioned as more than just "Rochelle", and you're the one who's getting mad at me? People always thought I was just another friend! Fuck you. Fuck you. FUCK YOU. I did nothing but try to love you. Are you doing this shit on purpose? Do you want me to hate you? Are you pissed off that I won't let you get away with certain things anymore? You can't have shit both ways. I'm not going to be your fuck buddy. The most I was willing to give you was a hug and a kiss on cheek, now you can't even have that. My GOD! I'm so angry at you. I swear you better pray I don't strangle your ass. Just fucking stomp on my heart some more. Rub the salt in this huge, gaping, head wound, why don't you? For 3 years, YEARS?!? You are seriously fucked in the head. Grow the fuck up. Take responsibility for your actions and yourself. I'm done. That's it. I tried to make shit work as your friend. That isn't even working. You can't have your way this time. If you think about it, you've almost always had your way. There's no way in hell now. Fuck you. I can't believe this shit.
Isn't it bad enough that you don't even bother to ask me how I'm doing? Isn't it bad enough that you can act like this shit does not affect you in anyway? Why bring this shit up now? God, I'm already feeling so lonely and lost without you. I'm already vulnerable. You stripped me down to some sniveling little bitch. I feel wretched knowing that I can't have things the way they were. All I ever wanted was to make this shit work out. Now this. Just fucking shoot me already. Stop fucking torturing me. I already feel less alive. Stop taking pieces of me away. You had my heart and you shattered it to bits. Why do you continue hacking away at what's left of me? I just want to be able to move on with my life. Why do you insist on this emotional warfare? Just stop. STOP. Please. No more. I just want to be left alone. Please, stop...
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