::Drama Just Seems to Follow Me EVERYWHERE::
So my time away at the Navy Lodge was ok, up until this morning. I'm a little pissed off, but mostly frustrated. It's like everytime things seem to calm down and I'm finally adjusting to the last nerve wrecking incident, someone in my life goes and pulls another stunt. I mean for the most part, I'm feeling fine. I just don't like that my education has been suffering lately. The only reason why I'm working full time is basically because if I want to take my desired path in life, then I have to do it on my own for the most part. For my birthday, I just asked that I get a little financial help for school so I could save a little more money for books in spring. However, today, ugh. I was basically shitted on. I had to hear the lecture about the advantages of being a nurse from my mom. She went off about if I just had listened to her, then she would've paid for all my educational expenses at a vocational school and not give me such a hard time about trying to get a degree in Economics. She kept going on about if I had just went to Maric College I could've been finished with my training and I could already be working. I'd have all this job security, and money, and I could get material things, and blah de da. Look, she has good points. I won't deny that. That would be straight up pig-headed of me to not see that there are advantages to that path in life. I've always been the type of person to do what I feel is right for me, and honestly, I know I couldn't stand being in the medical field. She makes it seem like trying to be an economist is totally retarded. As if I'd be living on welfare and struggling with taking care of myself. I don't even necessarily have to be an economist, there are so many job opportunities for someone who obtains that level of education. It bothers me how she can make me feel like my choices are just plain bad. It's not about money for me. It's about doing something that I can LIVE with for the most part of my life. She tells me to be practical, and I'm like how is choosing economics unpractical? Ever since graduating from high school back in '01, she'll pull this out on what feels like the worst times. She's driving me bonkers, as always. I just hate that she doesn't see that I'd be satisfied with myself if I could just do what I feel is right for me. She basically tried to deny me any help when I started college, and since our relationship was never that great, it's been that much more strained. *sigh* Whatever. I'm cool. She's not going to stop me. Things she says never gets to me for too long. This is my life I'm living, she'll figure that out soon enough.
Random Blurb: I feel much better getting that out.
posted by Rochelle @ 5:05:00 PM
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