::Tired::
Things have happened since I last posted, both good and bad. I'm very thankful for the good. I have wonderful friends, an amazing significant other, and certain family members let me know I'm appreciated. I count those blessings everyday and try to remember to show those people that I'm grateful that they are part of my life. They make me feel good. I always feel loved around them. I can genuinely smile, laugh, and let go of things that would usually bug the crap out of me or just piss me the fuck off. That's a nice feeling. I try to surround myself with that feeling every chance I get.I loathe the fact that some people can just throw you into a funk. That sucks. My mother...God...my mother. She only gets that title by default, and I hate how she knows just what to say to hurt me. It shouldn't bother me. It's not true. I know that she just wants to make herself feel better by making me feel bad. I don't give her the satisfaction of seeing me wounded by her words. I keep up this front until I can lock myself in my room for a little bit to regroup and prepare for the next barrage of insults and false characterizations. Such is my life, so boo fucking hoo. Get over it. It's not enough to have to pick up her slack where certain responsibilities are concerned. It's not enough to sacrifice my plans for my future so that I could help take care of the family's present. *RAWR* I feel like crud. Sorry if I seem off. It's just time to shake off another funk.
Random Blurb: I just want to lay down, everything feels like it's dragging 20 feet behind me.
posted by Rochelle @ 4:57:00 PM
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