::Roch Says::

::Pass a Box of Tissues::

The word dream has several defintions. Let's see if I can get this post to express what I'm trying to get at.

dream ( P ) Pronunciation Key (drm)
n.
1. A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.
2. A daydream; a reverie.
3. A state of abstraction; a trance.
4. A wild fancy or hope.
5. A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration: a dream of owning their own business.
6. One that is exceptionally gratifying, excellent, or beautiful: Our new car runs like a dream.

So to simplify my train of thought, I'm going to assume that most readers are familiar with each one of these variations of dreams. I'd like to focus on the very first definition. Now, sometime or other, everyone has dreamt while asleep. The images may have been very pleasant, strange, nightmarish, or just plain unmemorable. We may not know why these dreams occur, but each one has some sort of meaning behind it.

Now, I've had my share of each type of dream. However, I've been experiencing the nightmarish kind as of late. I don't know why, but horrible dreams of someone from my past have been more frequent. The scenarios are becoming more disturbing and frightful. When you get back to the reality of it all, you try to tell yourself, "It's only a dream". But it's never that simple when it comes to certain subjects.

These dreams are the kind that feel so real, even after hours of waking up the images are still fresh and clear. My heart palpatates for hours on end, and my hands take equally long to regain their steadiness. The good thing is, I am getting better at concealing how affected I am by these images. In the end, it's not real, so why be so bothered? I don't know. Just pass the box of tissues.

The thing I'm trying to get at is, a dream is never, "only a dream". There are emotions that can be conjured up. Some can be postive, some others negative. I've had some unwanted feelings brought up again, and some new issues have been raised. However, I don't want to burden anyone else with my involuntary "series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations". There's not much I can do to prevent these nightmares. Even after a day where I felt loved, secure, had fun, and relaxed I fall asleep only to be haunted. I'm trying hard to adopt the concept that it IS only a dream. I wish they could just stop feeling so damned real.

Random Blurb: I'd much prefer dreamless nights.

posted by Rochelle @ 4:26:00 AM