::Roch Says::

::Total Hate::

I know that at one point in everyone's existence, there was a time where they have been very critical of their physical appearance. I mean it's only natural. You ARE your own worst critic. I am the type that will scrutinize all the little things about myself. Right now, I'm in self-hate mode. For some reason, there have been a lot of comments made about my weight. This has been a long standing issue for me. I've ALWAYS been a little overweight. I mean, in reality, I'm subject to way more positive comments. However, it's always the negative things that seem to stick to me the most. I hate the fact that those comments can always make me feel guilty about the way I choose to handle my lifestyle. I feel so guilty and am so affected by those words, that it puts me in a funk. I don't like being in a funk because of how horrible I act. And when I act horrible, it affects my interactions with the people who are brave enough to deal with my bullshit on a daily basis. Then there's more guilt. I know better, too bad I just can't act like it.

That sums up one thing that's been bothering me lately. I've been so damned emotional. *Rawr* I'm drained just from thinking about stuff. Stuff can suck. Whatever...the end.

Random Blurb: ...(speechless)...

posted by Rochelle @ 10:36:00 PM