::Heatwave::
It's amazing how in the span of a couple of weeks how drastically moods can swing. I've found myself battling some very negative feelings that have almost forced me back down that self-destructive path that I once followed. I can never pinpoint the exact cause of these drastic swings, but it can get very ugly, scary, and I get lost in pure selfishness. Since I was a child, I can remember going through the phases of this wild emotional ride. Of course, certain times were worse than others. Through the sheer grace of God, I either found my own way or had someone to pull me out and give me a good smack to set me straight. The strange coincidence that pulls these stormy episodes together, is that it seems to be particularly worse if it occurs during the summer. Perhaps it can be attributed to the fact that I have more time to myself, and the reflections I make about my past? This is the first summer in the span of 4 years where my only concern is tolerating the heat as I try to tan. No summer class to keep my mind occupied with facts, numbers, or papers. No work to force me to find little ways just to make it through my shift. This is the worst episode I've had in years, and maybe my inactivity is to blame? I'm really not sure.
My thoughts have been clouded over easily. It doesn't take much to throw me into a funk nowadays. Blah, I'm trying. I made a promise to myself to try and cope with my so-called "issues". This is a vow I've uttered to myself over and over again. It just gets so tiring to go through the spectrum of emotions so often in a short amount of time. I've been angry, disappointed, content, miserable, happy, and everything else you could imagine in the span of time it will take me to finish this post. OK, slight exaggeration but that's how it can feel. I've made through the valley of negativity, and things are on the upswing. I'd prefer that it stayed that way for a while. At the risk of sounding asinine, the cliché of, "Life is
TOO short" applies. My personal earth moving event in April is evidence enough for me.
Being somewhat of the control freak I am, it's hard to try to just accept things as they happen. Personally, it kills to just have to roll with the punches. I would love to be able to be more proactive in the matters that affect my personal decisions concerning family. That is one thing that no matter how hard I try, I can't do alone. So much bothers me, but I'd say a good 95% of it I can't change on my own. I'm finding it extremely difficult to follow the words I've given friends as advice. I'm trying to take care of myself, and just put forth my part of the effort. I'm trying to do what I must to ensure my own future. But we
ALL know that trying is the most complicated and exhausting task.
I really don't know where this post is going anymore. I should leave it at that. Honestly there's so much weighing on my mind, that I'm not sure if I make sense. It's time for me to continue trying at this trip called, "Life".
Randomb Blurb: See there I go with the whole selfish thing again! A VERY HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MS. CHARLENE RAQUEL PEÑA!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
::Weirdness Of The Week::
So, it all started on Wednesday. A good day to start some weirdness right? It's the middle of the week, people see the weekend in the horizon, and since summer's out people have the tendency to act like more of an ass. It gives me so much entertainment to be minding my own business and then seeing people go a little bit goofy.
Wednesday night I go to watch Spiderman 2, which is extremely well done! But during the movie I kept feeling my cell phone go off, but I decided to wait until after the movie to see what's up. Right after getting out of the movie, there's this couple and their kid. The dad has his son in his arms. The dad is bouncing his kid off walls. The kid was all like, "What are you doing, daddy?" All the while he's giggling his ass off.
About the calls to my cell, I have a voicemail from my dad, and he sounds frantic. He's asking me if I took my mom's car, it's not in the driveway, they think it may have been stolen. I give him a call back and I find out that my mom didn't see that the car was parked up the street. My older bro had moved it earlier so that he could wash his car. Silly rabbits. They go and call the police only to find the car parked like 2 houses up the road.
Then to top that night off, some kid tried to steal a Pat and Oscar's banner from the mall. Minh and I were headed towards the car and we hear the security guard say, "Drop it! Drop it, NOW!" We turn around and we see this guy with a mohawk sprinting his ass through the lot and about 15 feet behind him he had dropped the banner. The kid ran until the security guard was out of sight and he strolled back in the direction of the exit he just ran out of. He passed some other people who saw the incident and they gave him props, "Nice try!"
So let us move onto Thursday shall we? I went to the Padres/Rockies game with my brothers, my sister, and Minh. The new ballpark is really nice. Which makes it forgivable that it's named Petco Park. We had park passes, meaning we only had access to standing room only areas, so we didn't have seats. I'm sad that the prices are ridiculous for EVERYTHING, but hey whatever. There wasn't really weirdness at the game, it was when we left. We parked at Horton Plaza so we had to stroll a few blocks to get back to the car. We passed by one of the streets and there was a firetruck and it was partially closed off. We find out that there's a cat, stuck in a palm tree. So yeah, the cat was floating about 40 feet above the ground in a freaking palm tree! Only in California, eh?
On one last note, the shelves in my room collapsed when I came home from the game. Sucks. I stayed away from public places yesterday so nothing to share. Today, however, I'm going to see the Vatican exhibit thats at the San Diego Museum of Art. Maybe I'll see more interesting things. That's all for now kiddos. See ya when I see ya!
Random Blurb: *Yay* I'm going to see art! Rochie loves the arts. =D
::It's Good To Be Home!::
Well, another Vegas trip has come and gone. Things were mad...hectic...I guess that would be the way to put it. But it's Vegas...so it's expected, right? The heat sucks, which is one reason why I don't like going in the summer. But on the upside, it's great to think back on all the weirdness that our collective group witnessed. So here's my rundown on some of the more memorable moments of the trip:
*Desert sunrises are cool! I can't get enough of those, the mountains near Vegas turned pretty colors.
*Bellagio has really good gelato. All the flavors I tried were mighty tasty. I recommend them all! (chocolate amarretto, white chocolate, rum raisin, or pistachio)
*My heart broke because FAO Schwarz was closed for remodeling. I couldn't get chocolate covered gummi bears for my pizza. It hurt even more that I couldn't get my cantaloupe Jelly Bellys.
*The Venetian is a great place for pictures of pretty art.
*Sonic...damn I pray that San Diego gets one of those. That's like the best fast food chain I've ever gone to.
*My mom got yelled at by this lady in a Chinese restaurant. "Do you want more rice?!?!" Shiet, we're Filipino...of course we want more rice!
*La Salsa Cantina's Raspberry Margarita by the yard is damned tasty! Thanks for the hook up Brenna!
*There was a fireworks battle in the parking lot of my parents' timeshare. Two different families had their own fireworks stashes and were just shooting them off like CRAZY! We got to watch our own show from the windows...that was freaking AWESOME!!!
So that's about all I have to say for now. But yeah! Here's my favorite picture from the trip. There's the Brenna, the Munchkin (my sis, Rita), the Minh (my cutie pie!), and me. My younger brother was the one who took the picture, and I must say he did an OK job. Too bad he wasn't in the pic too.
What a good lookin' bunch of weirdoes!
Random Blurb: Man, the car ride there and back made my ass hurt like a mofo!
