::Yay for Positive Affirmations!!!::
I am 21% White Trash.
I, my friend, have class. I am so not white trash. . I am more than likely Democrat, and my place is neat, and there is a good chance I may never drink wine from a box.
I am 7% Idiot.
I am not annoying at all. In fact most people come to me for advice. Of course they annoy the hell out of me. But what can I do? I am smarter than most people.
Wow! I'm not an idiot or trashy! Today is a good day to be alive now that I have that pertinent information. =P
Any how, what's new with me? Not much really. I've been a little engrossed in student council. I'm such a lunatic. I've been more than ambitious, actually on the verge of obsessed. There's just something about that school that makes me want to overachieve and stand out. I want to be set apart from the pack, and not to out do anyone else, but just to get that personal satisfaction. I really don't need any recognition from anyone else, it's so hard to explain. I guess I finally have that drive I've needed. There's that little something that's helping me to enjoy everything. I don't know, I can't put my finger on it. It's awesome though. I love having goals. *sigh* I just feel good.
So what else is new, you might ask? Not much really. I've been doing a lot of planning for student events. Tonight, for example, there's a pizza party for the new Core class. It's our little way of welcoming them to the Paul Mitchell culture. Monday, we have a Pow Wow. That's pretty much just a meeting to get everyone updated on current events or to address any needed issues. Also, since it's the end of the month Pow Wow, we'll be giving all the June birthdays a nod. So hooray for birthday cupcakes! Anyway, I just have to work one day at a time. That's something I just keep reminding myself of. I need to have discipline, focus, and I need to worry about quality not simply getting through a service. I love this discipline thing. It's totally working for me. I've learned so much, and I just can't wait to learn more, master more, just get as much information in my brain as possible. *sigh* Like I said, I just feel good. I'm happy with all aspects of my life. I pretty much have a good balance going on. Although, it is my bad for not really keeping in touch with people. It's just so hard to do that sometimes when everyone is just coming into control of their direction in life. We all have our aspirations and are working towards them, so it can be hard to make time for old friends, let alone new ones. I miss Charlene. I love her! I hope she's doing well while she's away. I'm off to send her an e-mail just to see what's been going on. I'm sad I won't get to celebrate her birthday with her, but I'm sure we'll have plenty of birthdays to share when she gets back. That's all for now. I've rambled quite enough. Later all!
Random Blurb: You know what's good? Dreyer's orange and cream ice cream. YUM!!!
::Someone Made Me Feel Pretty::
It's official, I've graduated from Core. What the hell does that mean you ask? That means that I get to protege on the floor at school. I'll be an assistant to another student, then come July (the 5th at latest), I can start taking clients. I'm excited. This is what I've been waiting for. Like I've said many a time before, I'm very thankful and appreciative that I have this opportunity to pursue something that I found I have passion for. It's an awesome feeling to finally find my niche, my purpose, that special something to make my days feel complete. Complete in a sense that I don't feel as if I'm wasting my time at school. I'm humbled by the whole experience. The good, the bad, the frustrations, the accomplishments all have been just plain worth it.
Before moving on from Core, I had my interview with my Learning Leader, Suzanne. She made me feel like I was doing something right. She just helped to affirm that all my efforts are paying off. I was flattered by all the positive things she had to say about me. I never really considered myself a stand-out type of student, not even person, but she said things contrary to the views I hold of myself. I didn't realize how much she actually noticed during these past 10 weeks. Now, I'm even more eager to learn, practice, and participate. Despite all the anxieties I have, I know that I'm in good hands with my education. I wish I could say the same while I was attending San Diego State.
To finish the night I went out with a couple of girls from school. Autumn and Diana are two people whom I feel privileged to have met. We have great conversations and we all just have a good connection. We went down to the Yardhouse after class. They had a couple of beers, I had a midori sour and a coffee. They're just such sweet people. It's funny, they like to make fun of me for turning red with my first drink. Which has happened all three times we've been able to go out together. But somehow, last night, while they razzed me about my alcohol induced glowing skin they turned it into a compliment. Diana said I was pretty, and Autumn said she loved my skin. They both commented on how they like my make-up and I giggled like a Japanese school girl. I couldn't help it. It was unexpected, I felt a little embarrassed, but I tried to take their comments as gracefully as I possibly could. I mean, I only expect to hear stuff like that from Minh because it's so evident that he loves me. When other people see some kind of beauty in me, I get awkward. But it was a good test for me, I've been trying to just accept the positive things about myself, even if I'm not the one who can see them.
Well, I'm just feeling good about myself because of last night at school. I know that I need to stop selling myself short, but it was nice to hear people say what I consider very flattering things. It lets me know that all the work that I'm doing and have done to better myself is working in some way. It's a blessing to be recognized for the things you do well, but I know there's more effort towards self-improvement to come. Everyone's given me a slight ego boost, but I know I need to stay grounded. I just need to continue to do what I feel is right for my given situation, and I know that I'll be fine. I'm just happy I've made progress *Yay!*
Random Blurb: I have work to do! Student Council issues beckon. I'm just glad I have someone on my side who's as willing to work as I am.
::Uncertainty::
Not knowing things is very scary. I like being surrounded by knowledge. There's an odd sense of comfort in knowing something...anything. I don't like the saying, "Ignorance is bliss". To me it just seems like an easy escape from reality. I'd rather know what's true, and deal. That's just me. I don't like the uneasiness that's associated with the anticipation of trying to find something out. It just creates a whole slew of negative emotion. I feel like every time I'm anxious about something a little part of me is lost to the feelings. I can't be myself. I hate not being myself. Like right now for instance, I'm a little edgy because I don't know something that's important to me. *sigh* It's just hard to explain. Maybe I'm not being clear about what I mean. It's going to be OK though. I know it is. This part, the part about waiting to find something out, that's the worst. I just need to get through it.
Any way, I'm just feeling a little stressed due to a couple of things. I'm in Student Council, but there's drama going on right now. I'm actually acting as both the Treasurer and President. It's just stressing me out. There's a lot to accomplish. I feel, not so much burdened but maybe that's the closest word I can think of right now. I feel a lack of communication between us, and day school's student council. Also, I feel a lack of teamwork. BLAH. I have this event I'm trying to coordinate for this year's Street Scene. Also, I have a test coming up. There's a lot to commit to memory. And, I need to get things in order for our upcoming Pow-wow for school. I'm feeling a little gross, so I haven't started anything. I'll definitely be on top of the ball after getting a little rest. I think that's a good idea right now. That's pretty much all I have to say and vent about. Good night. Sweet dreams. Take care.
Random Blurb: Great...I didn't let Jack out in time. I'll be cleaning up dog urine before bed. *yay* =P
::Why Bother?::
Sometimes it's just best to let certain relationships fall by the wayside. Things change, and when they do just act accordingly and go with the flow. By going with it, you'll find the best answers in how to deal with whatever comes your way. Even with all the frustration that you go through, just keep in mind to get some breathing room and let hard feelings pass. Stay hopeful that any issues can be resolved at a later time, but if that time doesn't come at least you won't be as upset about it. Really, you can ignore everything I've put before this. I'm just trying to make an assertion that holds weight for me. Now moving on to the real point of this post...
I've been fortunate to spend a lot of time with Charlene lately. She's one of my best friends, someone whom I've shared pretty much all my life experience with. We've spent hours on end just talking, and helping each other get through situations and sort out a mix of emotions. She's someone that I look up to and look out for. She's my, "treasure" and I feel blessed to be hers. In one mere week she'll be leaving for the Peace Corps. I just wanted to take some time out to share photos from Ono's Cafe in Bonita. That night contained some of the memories that I can say I helped her make to remember home and the people who love her. So cheers, Char! I love you and safe travels!
L-R: Dinah, Charlene, Michelle, ROCHelle
Yummy! Desserts are awesome!
I was trying to make a Tiki face...I didn't fare so well.Random Blurb: I'd love to share the pictures we took at Monsoon in the Gaslamp Quarter, but Michelle needs to send me copies. I'll try to have those soon. I'm feeling so inspired, I can't wait to cut hair tonight. I just have to remember "discipline".
