::Roch Says::

::Someone Made Me Feel Pretty::

It's official, I've graduated from Core. What the hell does that mean you ask? That means that I get to protege on the floor at school. I'll be an assistant to another student, then come July (the 5th at latest), I can start taking clients. I'm excited. This is what I've been waiting for. Like I've said many a time before, I'm very thankful and appreciative that I have this opportunity to pursue something that I found I have passion for. It's an awesome feeling to finally find my niche, my purpose, that special something to make my days feel complete. Complete in a sense that I don't feel as if I'm wasting my time at school. I'm humbled by the whole experience. The good, the bad, the frustrations, the accomplishments all have been just plain worth it.

Before moving on from Core, I had my interview with my Learning Leader, Suzanne. She made me feel like I was doing something right. She just helped to affirm that all my efforts are paying off. I was flattered by all the positive things she had to say about me. I never really considered myself a stand-out type of student, not even person, but she said things contrary to the views I hold of myself. I didn't realize how much she actually noticed during these past 10 weeks. Now, I'm even more eager to learn, practice, and participate. Despite all the anxieties I have, I know that I'm in good hands with my education. I wish I could say the same while I was attending San Diego State.

To finish the night I went out with a couple of girls from school. Autumn and Diana are two people whom I feel privileged to have met. We have great conversations and we all just have a good connection. We went down to the Yardhouse after class. They had a couple of beers, I had a midori sour and a coffee. They're just such sweet people. It's funny, they like to make fun of me for turning red with my first drink. Which has happened all three times we've been able to go out together. But somehow, last night, while they razzed me about my alcohol induced glowing skin they turned it into a compliment. Diana said I was pretty, and Autumn said she loved my skin. They both commented on how they like my make-up and I giggled like a Japanese school girl. I couldn't help it. It was unexpected, I felt a little embarrassed, but I tried to take their comments as gracefully as I possibly could. I mean, I only expect to hear stuff like that from Minh because it's so evident that he loves me. When other people see some kind of beauty in me, I get awkward. But it was a good test for me, I've been trying to just accept the positive things about myself, even if I'm not the one who can see them.

Well, I'm just feeling good about myself because of last night at school. I know that I need to stop selling myself short, but it was nice to hear people say what I consider very flattering things. It lets me know that all the work that I'm doing and have done to better myself is working in some way. It's a blessing to be recognized for the things you do well, but I know there's more effort towards self-improvement to come. Everyone's given me a slight ego boost, but I know I need to stay grounded. I just need to continue to do what I feel is right for my given situation, and I know that I'll be fine. I'm just happy I've made progress *Yay!*

Random Blurb: I have work to do! Student Council issues beckon. I'm just glad I have someone on my side who's as willing to work as I am.

posted by Rochelle @ 2:03:00 PM