::Roch Says::

::NOT WORTH IT!::

I hate learning the hard way. Especially when it's a lesson I swore I would've had by this point in time. I keep telling myself that I should've known better. I feel so stupid for letting myself be vulnerable. I hate to admit it, but some things and people are just not worth the effort. I overly stress myself and for what? I'll tell you for what, DISAPPOINTMENT!!! I care too much for my own good. So what now? I'll just let it go. As hard as that's going to be, I can't let it bother me anymore. I have better things to worry about, people who show me that they care for me to worry about, and my own direction in life to worry about. It's sad that things happened the way they did, but a smart man has shown me that it's the past and that I did do my part. I need to stop selling myself short and calling myself a failure in personal relationships. There wasn't anything more I could do and it wasn't the most balanced as far as reciprocity is concerned. I'm better off just relying on as little people possible for emotional support. It's about the quality not the quantity. I can admit that I wish I had that one girlfriend to talk to at anytime about anything. I had that in Charlene, but with her away for her Peace Corps duties I've been lacking a reliable female companion. I miss girl talk. I miss just being stupid and random on the phone or in person. Don't get it twisted, Minh IS my best friend, the biggest part of my support system, my therapist, my shoulder to cry on and the whole nine. But it's just not the same as having that one good girlfriend to turn to when you just need that female bonding. Anyway, point is that I'm closing a chapter in my life story. I know I have good people in my life. I may not have that one, much needed homegirl but it could be worse. I know that I'm not the strongest person, but I have people to keep me strong and they don't bullshit with me. I have people who won't sugar coat, will tell me when I'm being an ass, and who will tell me when I've done something right. They're the ones who keep me grounded, and really there isn't much more to need. I'm thankful for them. And with that, this chapter ends.

Random Blurb: "You're so vain, I bet you think this song is about you..."

posted by Rochelle @ 1:04:00 AM